Weds, July 11th

Written on Wednesday, July 11th

This week has really been hard for me. Kitchen crew was more difficult then I had thought it would be. I have really been going at ends with some of the people here, I am happy that this week is nearly over. God has really been challenging me this week through the trials of manual labor and trying to get along with others. I have probably complained a bit too much this week but also I feel there was a general lack of willingness to help at the start of the week. People have been trickling in to help us more the past few days. I am happy that I leave for sonshine tomorrow. It will be a welcome break.

I have been reading the bible at least a little bit this week and it really helping. It is hard to have time to think about what I have read but I will be taking some time at sonshine for myself I hope. I do a lot of hoping now and less concrete planning for my life, the only things that are concrete are the things that they plan for me here at camp, my life is clay in their hands sometimes and it is annoying at times, but it is just another thing in the challenge of the summer. I had a heart to heart with God tonight which was much needed. I had some authentic tears of humility and submission to my Creator, it has been a while. Thank you Father.

Well friends, I must go and pack for sonshine. Night

-Dean